沉溺

续 ‘玛丽外宿中’后

现沉溺于 ‘原来是美男’...

容许我沉溺于戏中角色

是很不实际

是很妄想

就只需那一刻的感觉

融入于女主角的心情

融入于那不实际的溺爱...

错

困难重重的开始


不该犯的错

不能原谅的错

无法担当的错

知错能改就好

说得容易

心里的刺依然还在...

加油吧！

表面

凡是都不能只看表面

这每个人都懂

但又有几个人做得到呢

表面上很完美的东西

但背后却隐藏很多不为人知的故事

为人师表的夫妻

三更半夜为了芝麻小事大吵起来

而且还吵到外面来

让本小姐'惊吓'醒来

结果又是失眠结局...=.=

想不到的是两个都是当老师的

看不出的是向来保持沉默的男人出口成章

不知道的是女人常被默默挨打

唉~ 话说人家家事尽量少理

虽然已经触犯本小姐的私人范围!

( 不要怀疑.以上不是说我那好好屋主!

只是隔壁邻居>.< )

每天早上等待公司开门的时刻

从楼上望下去

虽然不是什么美景

但足以让我有很多的inspiration

哈哈! 看着每个上班人士

心里无聊的自我玩着猜测游戏

无可否认的本小姐的观察能力还真有点好!

哈哈!

只是还是那一句

凡是不能看表面

有一对上年级的楼上高层

每早都很恩爱的一起上班

看似很甜蜜

不久后的一天

才知道背后隐藏的恐怖真相

原来....

他们俩各自都拥有一个完美的家庭...

所以说...他们拥有两个家庭咯???

唉~

N年前从朋友那听来

男人是公认的二十四孝好好男友

女人的霸道任性都一一沉默的独自吞下

从来没对任何人埋怨

有时旁人看了都不尽自叹替那男人感到悲哀

殊不知...男人背后拥有另一个小女人

男人的委屈伤心都由那小女人承担

却没人知道那小女人的出现...

说回本小姐吧

看表面的话

本小姐那神经质好玩的性格

应该很少人猜得出是老师的女儿吧

哈哈哈! 至少身边的人都那么说

传统里盖上'老师的孩子'称号的

要不就是个天才.

要不就是个书呆子.

要不就是个乖乖孩

很抱歉的说....以上的本小姐都没有!

哈哈哈!

所以说..

看事情不要只看表面听单方面

往往很美好的表面

背后隐藏的更是恐怖

我承认我是有点'外貌协会'成员之一

但只是在对象的选择时..

虽然自己条件不好

但现实还是现实

因为接下来的日子我都要面对的一个人

也许会认为我很差

自己长相都酱了还要选

哈哈! 也对啦~ 但还是很抱歉

过不了自己那一关

好男人还是不适合本小姐 >.<

内疚之心

从来很少会后悔所做过的事

也很少会去逃避

但往往都被内疚之心给打败

只有‘它’让我逃避

永远记得那第一次

小学五年级的那一年

向来都不是个好榜样的正级长

在老师缺席没人代课的时候

又如往常般跟朋友四处流浪

因此整个班就像老鼠放街般

最后当然逃不过副校长的眼里

鼎鼎大名的精英班

不是出名在聪明乖巧

而是最吵最闹最难管的一班

结果全班被罚

最让我印象深刻的

不是我被罚

而是身为总团长的他

在全班人面前

得到最残酷的惩罚

即便不是真的因我而起

但那时的心真的好痛

虽然放学回家后

我们还有煲电话粥

但还是没有勇气问候他

更没有勇气向他说声对不起

他在我心中永远存这那么灿烂的笑容

唯有那一次

也是第一次

看到他那脆弱的一面

这件事从来没说

直到六年后重复合的那段时间

也没在说起...

事到如今

我依然没大改变

最近的事

让我重忆起

到现在还是败给了内疚之心

top 10 target X wish list

happyyy halloween!!! 

actually i plan to hang out today

tapi now i decided to stay at home on the last day of Oct >.<
( maybe will go for a job later? )

just in case you all forget my top 10 target X wish list on last two months

http://awei88.blogspot.com/2010/08/top-10-target-x-wish-list.html

YES!! i make it in 5 over 10!

kinda success huh! haha

now.. have to replace back the empty wish box *wink*

1. sandals

2. slim down as i'm over weight for long time ago!!!
( it's duperb hard assignment for me! )

3. my recent fugly fringe can grow faster!!!

4. outfit for coming bestie wedding

5. medicure & pedicure

6. Mac Book

( a long long way to go >.< hope it'll come true by next year May )

7. Air Ticket for next year travel

8. another buffet with dessert?

9. make more $$.. muahahaha

10. happyyy everyday!!! :D

活

悠闲的渡过十月的最后第二天

 续上个星期超充实的短游

这个星期就散漫点吧～

丰富的二人午餐

超糗的吃雪糕画面

放纵的买点日常用品

懒散的在床上看着'康熙来了'

嘴里吃着Lay's 

尽情没形象的大笑

是的

活着就是让自己快乐

身边的人自然就会快乐

即便你很努力的想让身边的人快乐

但自己却一点都不快乐

那么老实的告诉你

你身边的人也都不会快乐

因为这是传染病

有时候想说

吃得健康点对身体好一点

但有时又看到那些好健康的

到最后还不是一样病痛连连

有人说过

人死后火化

不管肥瘦高矮贫富

剩下的就只是白灰

什么也带不走

有钱又能怎样

只不过能把葬礼弄得大体些

如果子孙心里都打着家产的算盘

那倒不如过着安康的日子

至少离开后没那么多顾虑

能活着就要爱自己

偶尔吃点好的让自己开心点

每年计划出国旅行一次

就算存钱再辛苦也是值得的

有空时打打电话回去

关心下家人好友
即使是单身一个人
都可以每天感觉恋爱

如今的世界

谁都预测不了明天会如何

与其在那紧张

倒不如开心温饱的渡过美好一天

>.<

thank you！

a lil appreciate notes...

it's almost 5 months i'm here

far away from my lovely penang

this time not just kl

is the foreign country that need to use passport

many people told me that i'm brave enough to come alone

many had ask me the same question

' why you choose to come here?'

and my ans is the same to everyone

yet, i'm not alone here!

because of this, i get the chance to get closer to my cousin

because of this, i get the chance to know more people

because of this, i'm lucky enough to found the job and the room

because of this, i'm get closer to my parents

because of this, i realise that i'm the one who rely much on my besties

because of this, i love my life more and appreciated every moment!

first, 

thanks to my family for the support

they always there for me no matter what

never say no to my ambition but they try their best to help me  

thanks to my cousin for the uncountable help

really owe you both lots that money cannot return

second,

thanks to all my dears

had the farewell for me before i came

and the valuable gifts that money can't buy

the video that just belong to me

third,

to those who came for travel or just to find me

because of you all

i never feel lonely here

it's just like i'm still in penang!

i can't describe the feeling out

but it always make my tears out because of your lil-miny-action

first three months that i'm here, laywei & ivee came

then li & sharmen purposely come to visit me

pei lin come next and the early birthday treat

and i'm not alone in this year birthday tho i'm not in m'sia

yen &dear were here celebrate with me

coming up next with soo lip here & joan's present

then my parents that came purposely for me

and the recently kp & jac!

i can't imagine if those days without you all

fourth,

and of course those who din't come over

the courages and supports you all gave means alot to me!

real lots!! 

sometimes when i was down or pressure

those supportive words that you all told me

make me full of strength!

 fifth,

thanks to my seniors who gave alot of help and taking care of me here

alice, who is the important people that encourage me to come here

she really help me lots and always ask me not to give up no matter what

can't miss out ms prettie josephine

she always cheer my days after whole lots of tension

and accompany me to go here and there though sometime seems like i'm paksa'ing her

*wink*

then joan came, both of them are so natural and real

and of course potential to be actress! hahaha!

sixth,

thanks to my colleagues who never get mad cause my stupidness

hehe, i know i'm kinda nerd sometimes

but you both still never get bore of teaching me

last,

a BIG THANKS to everyone!!!

i'll fight hard for my future and never ever give up!!! 

i'm proud of myself, my family and my friends!

i love my life so so much!!!!

quote of the week:

enjoy and eat whatever you want when you still can
but that not mean you can waste
life is short! it's unpredictable!
you can see me this moment doesn't mean i'm still here at the next moment
so appreciate it and leave no regret!

controlling...

a very quick short post before say buh-bye to the office!

don't know what to write but feel like writing something

*wink*

i'm trying hard to stay away from 'shopaholic'

arghhh!!! i got thousand things in my 'wish list'

i can't choose which to buy coz all are MUST have things!!!

can i be a billionaire once i wake up tomorrow? lollx

or maybe a prince's date? hahaha

owh.. relate back to my photo

no hope.no disappointment.but suprises!

wee~ first i get confirmation already!

thanks for those who always support me no matter what!

all of your courages mean lots to me!!!

second, have to say 'tana' to one of my old SE!

no iphone 4g but something different!

*lucky me*

okayy.. i know.. it's not so short post as i think

it's 6! bye~

heading to meet the MR who purposely come down to buy his ipad!

rich huh!!

quotes of the week

" when there's no hope.there's no disappointment " 

" Travelling alone is helpful for a new perspective on life "

" If you want to be famous, 

the first thing you have to do is stop wanting to be famous.

If you do good work, you will get noticed "

珍惜

短短的两个月里

两个认识的朋友

就酱离开了

都很年轻的他们

又是个很突然的

又是个撞了逃的

可恶！

06的那一年

因为那场意外

让大家心中永远存着那份惦记

每个朋友驾驶变得更加小心

更珍惜生命的每一天

如果有一天

当然谁都不希望那么的一天啦

只是说‘如果’！

人生嘛...要看开点 >.<

常不忌讳的告诉死党们

我想要怎样的后事

哈哈哈！

围绕着白色的百合

蓝色也好

之前还提议他们把我的绒毛娃娃都摆在四周

嘻嘻

然后每个人都不可以哭哦

要笑着的

要不我会报梦找他们

（说到这他们都显掉了 ^ ^）

就当作少了一个矮冬瓜

就当作少了一个叽喳婆

就当作少了一个八卦婆

生活还是要继续的嘛～
伤心哭泣也不可能死人翻身对吧？
只可以用行动来答谢
要过得精彩点才不会让在天堂的我担心嘛！
（一定是去天堂吗？哈哈！）

但有谁想那么找离开呢

还很年轻的

什么梦想都还没开始

更不用说结婚生子了

所以说啊

要好好珍惜生命中的每一天

要爱家人多一点

有空打个电话回家

就算没话讲也好

至少还是有打电话了

要爱真心的朋友多一点

吵架时一个小时后自动道歉

因为今日不知明日事

不要留下遗憾

更要爱自己多一点

没有华丽打扮没关系

偶尔还是要装扮下

心情会好一点

话说

“ 我可以没有男朋友.但不可以没有约会”

哈哈！加油吧！

是时候了...

0916早晨

包租婆: 你朋友和妈妈有没有说你有肉去？

本小姐: 有啊！他们说我脸像披萨 >.<

包租婆: 是咯！我看你的脸比较肉了

本小姐: 哈哈哈！有没有脸像皮卡丘.身体像多啦A梦？

包租婆: ........哈哈哈！！

conclusion:

好啦！我知道是时候检讨检讨了

我不要半年内胖十公斤！！！！！

tapi我又不能阻挡那些诱惑！

也还真好久没运动了....

嘻嘻

just lurve my life so much!

the very big suprise from my dears!!!!

i received it a day after my birthday from the mr.postman!

so so so happyyy when received it!!!

it's much more worth than any expensive present!

arrghh... love them so much

and i wanna say the sentence again!

I'm so lucky to have them!!

another virgo'ian - Joan the 'prettie' (hahahaa)

don't get angry when saw this

( i know u'll read this 'secretly')!

very relaxing and happy everytime hang out with them!

owiz non-stop laughing and 'acting'!

yes! yes!!!

they are here!! 

finally the parents are here!! >.<

after all my friends now is their turn!

guess they will be the last group for now *wink*

after that have to wait until Dec for others to come!

honestly we get more closer and closer 

after i leave the home so far away!

lurve them so much! :)

and i had receive the presents from them!!!

after the parents back

abit sad and bu she de

tapi luckily the two pretties invite me to the hotel stay!

weee~!! >.<

camwhore'ing non-stop in the hotel

it's nice!

but they claim that is smaller than laz time they saw coz got me ^^

lollx..

another can't miss out thing!

the 'skypool'!!!

it's at 57th floor!!

the scenery is so so so....PRETTYYY!!!!

kinda long time never swim ady...

here's the whole view 

nice-kan?

the conclusion of the week:

i had another great weekend!!! 

i just lurve my life so much!

great 22th!

as you see...

THEY ARE HERE!!!!!!!! weeee~~!!!

but they are going back while i'm typing this...sobxxx..!!! 

stay with them few days makes me get use to it

now....

i cant get use to it when i'm alone back!!! 

( tho my parents are coming this friday!) *wink*

sundae cornetto choc with my tire eyes...!! 

why no more mcflurry?

it's cause i realise that it's actually the same!

just that mcflurry cost me RM5 but sundae just RM3

soo...... hahahaha

the very first mooncake i ate of the year

and it's home-made by yen!!!

woott!!! it's so so so delicious!!!!

stay-ed at the very luan-mia-mr.driver's house *wink*

kinda long time never slp at 4 and wakiez at 8

duhzz.. i feel my body like getting older n older

thanks to the he for fetching us everywhere! haha

argghghh!!!! like finally....!!!!!!

i still miss penang dim sum!!!

but yet i still felt satisfied! >.<

one-day-trip at SG with the gang

it's fun tho our legs like going to patah already

haha! 

non-stop walking doesn't slim us down

cause we are also non-stop eating!

the non-stop eating scene

sentosa again! 

haha.. the feeling is different tho it's the 2nd time i'd been there

one of my wish!

i'll be on that one day! hahaha

i'm say it for REAL!!

you can see from the lighting

it's already night-time

spend our tea-breal at McCafe

my first time also >.<

and.....

yes! 

they suprise mieee with this!! >.<

infinity thanksss!!!!

i'm not alone tho i'm not in m'sia!!!!!

we are celebrating my 22th at SG!!! 

goshhh!!! gam dong~!!!!

end my day full of happinesss!!!

okay.. this is the very special first cake i eat this year!!!

it's spoil-ed before i blow the candle..

hahahaha~!

thanks to all my dears!! 

i'm so so lucky to meet you all!!!! >.<

*hugz*

the lil cake from my very kind collegue 

and the special dessert-cake from alice!!

thousand of thanksss!!! 

conclusion: 

虽然我人在异国

但今年的生日一点都不寂寞

没有太大的期望

但得到的是大大的开心！！！

有时远距离真的会拉近彼此的关系！

家人朋友都一样

会更亲密更关心更常联络更想念

来到这里

跟爸妈谈得更多了

也许是长大了也许是释放吧

受到爸妈讯息的那一刻

还真感动

也说了好久说的三个字！

哈哈！

你们应该很久也没对家人说了吧

朋友之间也越来越融洽

平常在一起时也许不会发觉

其实我还真的很依赖大家的

你们的一字一句我都很感动很感动

傻吧！嘻嘻

总之我还是要重复

我很幸运很幸运有酱的家人！！

很幸运很幸运认识到你们酱好的朋友！！！！

好爱你们哦！！！！！

pre.22th

thinking what's the theme for my 22-birthday

lollx. yes! i'm a dreamer and i love that!

i din't really expect much for this year birthday

maybe cause i'm no more 21?

or maybe cause i'm now in foreign country without my dearest around?

but i'm so happy that i'm not really alone this year!

yen n dear are coming during my big day

all my loves actually gave me a big presents of their visit to here

and i had my very first cake of the year before i came here

again i want to say i'm so lucky that having you all!!!

theme: relax-eating-bash

6 sept 10 falls on monday

is a working day

hope it will be a lil different from other days

wake up - work - home - sleep

*wink*

theme: lazy-sleeping-bash

just like normal days but i'll treat myself lil better >.<

theme: back-to-oldies-bash

still really figure out what to do for this

yala yala... i'm a dreamer! 

but i really enjoy it! 
and as usual. guess i'll buy myself a lil present 
hmmm.. what's should it be?
another buffet? haha

haha.. any ideas?

last weekend of Aug

My last weekend of Aug ended perfectly!

happy moment always end TOO fast!!

two of my 'lao peng you' came from penang!!!

they actually sit the same plane on tht day.. =.=

why m'sia got so so so much public hols???

but good for me also coz i get to meet them here

meet with Lip first on Sat

lotzzz of thanks to he n Joan!

they brought me tao sha piah and my blanket!!!

woot~!!! 

i really never thought tht they will contact my family!

i miss the 3-ppl-bbq moment so much!!
went to see the cam while shopping
my latest target - canon S95!
it attract me lotzzz!!!!!!!

due to paiseh-ness coz lip come with his family

so we din't take any pic *wink*

and he also bring me lotz of drama series! wee~

the next day - sunday!

meet up with lin!

din't have the chance to meet her b4 i come sg

but we still can hang out here!

she's getting thinner prettier 

and i love her latest hairstyle!

MOF Hi-tea after shop with her at Bugis Street

she so-called me 损友coz she bought lotz of clothes there! >.<

met up with Lip at MOF

( Joan, if u saw this, in case u don't know,

lip actually ate the greentea flavor of ice-cream ady! )

haha

the first time to clarke quay

it's a nice place to relax and hav drink there!

 superb nice hairstyle!!! 

see.. i din't lie rite?

she looks really gorgeous!!

okayz....

it's been ages i din't hv drink alcohol 

until i meet her.. haha..

so now who is the 损友?

lollx.. cranberry vodka~

had a enjoyable relax night 

we chat lotz.. remind lots of scl memories.. laughing..

i totally forget i got wrk the next day ^ ^

thanks so much for the acc!

i really truly proud that having you guys!!!!

lurve you all so so much!!! 

can't wait for coming weekend also!!! 

the 22th colourful birthday yet my dears are coming!!!

人

人.是很奇怪的

很百变很多种

很难很难很难找到同类

因为每颗心都是不一样的

这世界上不可能找到一模一样的心

经历了形形色色的事情

领悟了很多很多

有一开始很要好

久了就察觉到很多不同点

有由始至终都是死对头的

有现实的虚假的欺骗的玩弄的

这些都是日常生活中会出现的角色

对的时间错的人

错的时间对的人

永远不能完全的了解人类

有时必须相信命运这东西

因为它真的存在着

说是幼稚也好单纯也好

但也是命运让我知道想要就要去争取

因为错过了也许永远都回不了头

后悔也来不及了

有时莫不出声不代表不知道

而是不想去插手不想再多管

但有时你越不想去管事情越会找上门

他.全世界都知道的秘密

曾经拥有过的很幸福

体会了原来美梦是会发生在现实的

等待是有回报的

那么的短暂而美丽

那灿烂的笑容

就在短短的那几秒

从此成了大家心目中永远的难忘回忆

她.曾经是那么的要好

无所不谈无所不笑

就那几天里

从此结下了怨

也成了这一生中第一个笑话

他们.苦涩而甜蜜的秘密

体会了因为短暂所以珍惜的那时刻

不会后悔因为它让我懂了好多

让我享受短暂的疼爱

也让我了解更多他的心态

他们都有共同点

都是很懦弱的

谢谢你.明知故犯的陌生人

谢谢你.霸道执着的情绪化

她.一开始很针对的人

也许因为受影响

也许是自己的错

我承认她是第一个从没有好感到让我真正欣赏的

诚心的说声对不起

她没有向我证明什么

只是她的实力

让我好欣赏好佩服她

有一天一定要为过去的我

向她当面道歉

他.从很要好到厌恶

从厌恶到手足

声称是最了解他的人

让我很自豪的炫耀男女之间是有纯友谊的

有时很小孩子

有时说的话却能感动到稀里哗啦

真的不知道幸运还是不幸运的认识到他

庆幸的是

现在虽然过得平凡简单

但都很快乐

有人说过越是简单越是复杂

越是复杂越是简单

知足是好的

有点要求是好的

矛盾吧

因为人生从来没有平衡点